Golden haze.

Is last day of May and im really sure that i've already lost my focus during this period. I ruined my studies, my life. Whatever, Anti social ? I.Dont.Give.A.Damn. Problems, one after another. I had enough . Now i know, i really know what am i to people. Those who care they do, those who dont, leave me alone. I know what i really need now. I dont care what will be the next problem coming up but im prepared for the worse. Yah, life is unpredictable. So depressing when i got my results. I need to buck up during june. I cant let problems to distract me anymore. True enough, when im troubled by problems, depressed by it, i cant do anything. All my mind was flooded by it. Now, i dont want to get my report book. I really dont want to. Last day of may, new start of June. I need to make a better start. Dear problems, Mind giving me a break till Olevel? I cant handle it anymore. I've been undergoing FUCKING MUCH PROBLEMS for 1,2,3,4,5 weeks? Is painful. I need a life of my own :( Anyway...

This term, my exams will not do well im pretty sure. /: I cant deny i've so much things to say yet i dont know where to start. All i know was, im afraid, im just too scared. I wish life hasnt been so sophiscated at times and i didnt wanna blame life, fate. Because, im sure out there , there are more people having worse situation than i do. And this keeps me inspired and be strong till now regardless of any circumstances. Till now, every single day. I have to admit, i didnt have any courage or maybe i lost it.. I hope things will go back to how it was - Night calls, texts, disturb and how much you once care.. Despite all these, i will wanna tell you these even though you may not see this: I want to be your eyes when you're blind, I want to be your ears when you're deaf, I want to be your bones when you cant move, I want to be the one you run to when you need someone, i want to be the one you see everytime you open your eyes, i want to be the one to go through obstacles with ...

I think this whole weekend is so unproductive but at least i studied alittle. Sunday, tuition and i guess is fun with Eika and Cheryl after tuition ! yesterday study with WL and Zb. Not that bad, manage to do some work before i got home. And saturday was the best day in the month I guess . After so much ups and downs , I finally had a chillout . My mother , my pillar (L) I met baby as well ! Then mummy , karine , baby and others were at VS till late then baby sent me back . Love him much ! :D The whole april is a disaster but I made it through :) I really love all the ones who had been there for me and care for me . And those who make me laugh whenever I'm down ! :) Now, i'm still standing firm and strong because everything i been through just make me stronger.\\ And rubbish, i think because of the starbucks and Pastry yesterday, i feeling quite sick. I shall not eat those anymore. Now i hope i would not fall sick ! :(