Golden haze.

someone ask :" what's wrong ? " You'll reply : "nothing is wrong . " But only your heart knows , everything is . Just put a smile and say everything is fine , be happy . no point anymore . Sleepless nights will be over soon . Dark shadows crept over my head , I know I will get over it . Is the matter of time . Months . Years . Is all about life . Nothing is easy because of a screwed life . Things can be simple , but now , things are more complicated than it should be. I've no longer have faith in myself . FTW, endurance.

I posting this for the sake of ranting. Read it , or drop it. Im born to live , not born to get criticise by you . If by saying that, makes you happy , by all means. I know everything dont meant to be this way , i know im not fit to be . If it makes you happy , i will speak to the teacher . You never know how much it tears a person, a girl down. Discouraged. I hope i can end my secondary school life. Or, end my thoughts now. Im never good enough. Im never fit enough. Im never , i know. I KNOW. I've accept this fact, get it? Thanks for telling me that chunk, i get the MESSAGE. understand ? It will be distinctly carved into my brain, it'll seriously. I've understand, and i get the picture clear. I dont need you to remind me that things wasnt suppose meant to be this way. When you tear me down, do you know how i feel ? do you know how ? No. When you just told me off, it wakes my senses. I've understand what you imply - Leave and say goodbye. I get it. I'm seriously a h...

I feel the sun creeping up like tik tok ~ My blog lacking of updates and yes , i am gonna change number soon cause i realise singtel is more worth with all the plans. & im down with O's preparation and trainings. Readers, im gonna disappoint you all for this whole year i guess. MUG FOR O's ! I need to get into the course i wantttt :( ! Well, I need to meet Regina real soon . ^^ This entire week, i think i've never went home early . Is been so long since i reached home real early . Even my weekends are packed with all my revision and trainings. Yesterday, went love's place to study and is quite productive :) I realise my CIP is going to be 80 hours. I'm gonna hit 100 . Maybe 80 hours is nothing to people with nearly 200 hours but i did this within a year , from 18 hours - 80 hours which is during 2010. Thumbs up ! (Y). Hopefully i'll be able to complete by June. :) This year, i shopped for 2 days and im done. I'll do more shoppings online. HAHA, and im go...

I survived through last week and i have been studying quite sometime as well . Oh well, i've flunk my amaths which is trigonometry. I will really buck up on this topic. I swear i will ): It makes me so depress for the whole entire day on thursday . Damnit. So yeah, mostly was test for last week. But it wasnt as bad as i thought it will be about school life. Managable for the time being. Next , i went out on friday after studying with Shafiqah and Kokboon . Went vivo and i was late to meet Shawn. I felt horrible and remorseful . So, yeah. I think i have a bad habit. Ohgod. Caught chinese movie . Somehow, i forgot whats the title. The show wasnt as nice as i thought it will be. ): After movie, went Skypark and we started talking and stuffs. Till 11plus, we part our ways ^^ P.S: Sorry for being late though ! /: Saturday, Had friendly and we won 10-4 , i think. Against NYJC. Is pretty crucial at the last few periods. After training, i went home, studied alittle followed by watching sho...

Final GoodBye to 2010 , and hello to 2011. 2010 - I'm trying so hard to change, to be a better person. I didnt want to be someone , with immature thoughts like i was , in sec2 (2009). I regretted so much this year when i think back. Perhaps , i didnt want to disappoint my love ones anymore. I cried for my own actions and decisions. 2010, i even let myelf down badly by flunking MYE and of course, trusting wrong people. On the other hand, i got closer with much truthful friends who walked through 2010 life with me. Because, i know, in life, i just need few truthful friends. And i wanna thank the people around me , for playing the most important role in 2010. One just need to see things imperfectly , stand up when you know you lost in a fight. And i also learnt to open my heart , not letting "dislikes" or "small things" affect me. Because, is tiring and this doesnt benefit me.. 2011- 12am , i only come up with 1 . But now, i finally find 2 more. My resolutions: ...