Misery bring upon,

I posting this for the sake of ranting.

Read it , or drop it.

Im born to live , not born to get criticise by you . If by saying that, makes you happy , by all means. I know everything dont meant to be this way , i know im not fit to be . If it makes you happy , i will speak to the teacher . You never know how much it tears a person, a girl down. Discouraged. I hope i can end my secondary school life. Or, end my thoughts now. Im never good enough. Im never fit enough. Im never , i know. I KNOW. I've accept this fact, get it? Thanks for telling me that chunk, i get the MESSAGE. understand ? It will be distinctly carved into my brain, it'll seriously. I've understand, and i get the picture clear. I dont need you to remind me that things wasnt suppose meant to be this way. When you tear me down, do you know how i feel ? do you know how ? No. When you just told me off, it wakes my senses. I've understand what you imply - Leave and say goodbye. I get it. I'm seriously a human. I am alive, im not dead and be still. I react , R-E-A-C-T . So you cant expect me to be a dog, sit still, when i see such comments . No matter what now, it just seems so weird now. Things seem to be out of the way.. I've lost hope, I've no more inspiration , I've lost my focus. It takes me so long to walk out of the pitch darkness and now, it brings me down again. Something just tells me: dont touch the long sticks again .. I should have threw it out of my house.. Cause when i look at it, it brings unpleasant memories.. Memories that no one likes. Disappointed . - Myself. Your words are really memorable. Now, i feel that, hard work dont actually pay off. I think, i dont see a need why i work so hard either. All i see now, is words of criticism. So what i changed for the better? So what i tried ? So what i give my best ? Is nothing , isnt it? Numbed. You said so, so be it. I will take your words. I wont forget. I just have too much things to say, but i rather keep it to myself. I dont want to confide to anyone.


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