Golden haze.

I did not update my blog recently because i dont seems to be able to find any time to do so. Well, i think i lead a really hectic life now. Everyday, I never fail to have pile of work and test to study, especially now due to CAs. I know i will flunk some of my subjects so i guess i have to buck up a little next Semester. (And i surprisingly passed by PHYSICS SPA which i thought i wont.) And while posting this, im memorising physics theory and i doubt i will be sleeping tonight. Fortunately, tomorrow is really a short day so i can actually rest as soon as i got home. IS A FRIDAY, which means, is the last day of the week (Y) . I survived thursday , is an achievement* But anyway, this is a motivation :D ! Okay, got to start studying physics . & im having history test as well. So, byeeee. Test = Death. BYE.

Is few days after Valentine's day but nevertheless, i would like to wish everyone out there , Happy Valentine's day ! Lack of updates this year because i'm just too lazy to turn on my computer and i can hardly catch my breath due to the workloads. 14 February might be the worse and best day . I'm quite disappointed in myself and i cant really forgive myself. -.- Firstly , i underestimate teacher & the paper. Secondly, i didnt bother. So, i promised Tania , i will never slack after this whole Ca1 is over. Is killing me badly, (demoralized) . I cried over spilt milk when is totally pointless. Preparing to fail 14Feb papers. Both physics spa and Maths. Blamed myself*. But looking at the brighter side, this could be self reflection . Anyway, nonetheless, is still Valentine's day. I met Bby on that day. Although i'm really down on that day, but he really brighten up my day as what he assured me. Practically with all his doings, surprises and his plannings , it ma...

Been really long since i last updated. Really busy and i manage to blog now since i'm halfway done my chinese work. I didnt study much for January and im angry at myself. After new year, life must change for me. Mug + Healthy lifestyle + Spent some time with my love ones. But i really need to buck up from monday onwards ! Anyway, Chinese new year started on Thursday but had reunion dinner on Tuesday at mother's side and Wednesday on Father's side. Not too bad though. Got to meet Bf on Tuesday just before dinner. He accompanied me to Yishun and went off after that , (L) Wednesday , after dinner , went to catch a movie and stayed over at Dad's place and went home in the morning. Went to Bainian in the noon with, aunt's family , grandpa, uncle and mother. I rotted badly for the whole day ): But Friday, i met my dad and sisters and went relative place. Didnt do anything much and ended up going for a movie again. Went dad's place after that and got to win some money ...

someone ask :" what's wrong ? " You'll reply : "nothing is wrong . " But only your heart knows , everything is . Just put a smile and say everything is fine , be happy . no point anymore . Sleepless nights will be over soon . Dark shadows crept over my head , I know I will get over it . Is the matter of time . Months . Years . Is all about life . Nothing is easy because of a screwed life . Things can be simple , but now , things are more complicated than it should be. I've no longer have faith in myself . FTW, endurance.

I posting this for the sake of ranting. Read it , or drop it. Im born to live , not born to get criticise by you . If by saying that, makes you happy , by all means. I know everything dont meant to be this way , i know im not fit to be . If it makes you happy , i will speak to the teacher . You never know how much it tears a person, a girl down. Discouraged. I hope i can end my secondary school life. Or, end my thoughts now. Im never good enough. Im never fit enough. Im never , i know. I KNOW. I've accept this fact, get it? Thanks for telling me that chunk, i get the MESSAGE. understand ? It will be distinctly carved into my brain, it'll seriously. I've understand, and i get the picture clear. I dont need you to remind me that things wasnt suppose meant to be this way. When you tear me down, do you know how i feel ? do you know how ? No. When you just told me off, it wakes my senses. I've understand what you imply - Leave and say goodbye. I get it. I'm seriously a h...

I feel the sun creeping up like tik tok ~ My blog lacking of updates and yes , i am gonna change number soon cause i realise singtel is more worth with all the plans. & im down with O's preparation and trainings. Readers, im gonna disappoint you all for this whole year i guess. MUG FOR O's ! I need to get into the course i wantttt :( ! Well, I need to meet Regina real soon . ^^ This entire week, i think i've never went home early . Is been so long since i reached home real early . Even my weekends are packed with all my revision and trainings. Yesterday, went love's place to study and is quite productive :) I realise my CIP is going to be 80 hours. I'm gonna hit 100 . Maybe 80 hours is nothing to people with nearly 200 hours but i did this within a year , from 18 hours - 80 hours which is during 2010. Thumbs up ! (Y). Hopefully i'll be able to complete by June. :) This year, i shopped for 2 days and im done. I'll do more shoppings online. HAHA, and im go...

I survived through last week and i have been studying quite sometime as well . Oh well, i've flunk my amaths which is trigonometry. I will really buck up on this topic. I swear i will ): It makes me so depress for the whole entire day on thursday . Damnit. So yeah, mostly was test for last week. But it wasnt as bad as i thought it will be about school life. Managable for the time being. Next , i went out on friday after studying with Shafiqah and Kokboon . Went vivo and i was late to meet Shawn. I felt horrible and remorseful . So, yeah. I think i have a bad habit. Ohgod. Caught chinese movie . Somehow, i forgot whats the title. The show wasnt as nice as i thought it will be. ): After movie, went Skypark and we started talking and stuffs. Till 11plus, we part our ways ^^ P.S: Sorry for being late though ! /: Saturday, Had friendly and we won 10-4 , i think. Against NYJC. Is pretty crucial at the last few periods. After training, i went home, studied alittle followed by watching sho...