Golden haze.

Lately, school is really long hours and im always sleep deprived. Weekends, i spent most of the time studying . Is really productive . Maybe i will not be posting much till Prelim end and i've lost readers. But i think this is meant for me to remember what's life like ^^. And i officially say, i've let go stuffs :) Nim , Martin and Eika would know ! Well, is a good thing for me now. Im happier in a way, no longer a SLAVE ! Few pictures of crazy moments after studying . More at facebook and Henny's phone !

Are you too scare or what . I don't give a fuck what day it is . You see mine , wow , can . Me ? Fuck no to me . How great -'-

Im kinda bored. So, i just found this on tumblr and decided to do :D. Title: Ask and i will answer honestly completely. 1. the person i like and why i like them. (Exclude parent) - Boyfriend: Despite all the ups and downs recently but he didnt give up and continue this relationship and i guess is more than like :) - Eika&Nim: They are the ones who showed me true friends/BFF. :) They see my tears when im smiling :) - JiroWang and AaronYan: They are just hot idols ! LOL. 2. a famous person i’ve been compared to. - NIL. 3. 5 things that irritate me about the same sex/opposite sex. - Total Betrayer/Liar. - Not replying texts. - 4. the best thing that has happened to me this week. - Hmm. I think is Shock of my level ranking :) Is better than i expected. LOL. 5. weird things i do when i’m alone. - I cant think of any. REALLY. 6. how i’d spend ten thousand bucks. - Shopping , Buy cameras and spend on the ones i love. Then save, x: 7. things i like and things i don’t like about the way i l...

After completing most of the work. Left with: 1) 1, 2 Physic paper 2. 2) Amaths TYS (Optional). 3) History Inference (If not done). 4) Biology w/s. Wait so few. Nevermind, i will add on if there's any. Fewer= more time more revision.

School officially ended. Now, i really wanna make full use of this holiday and spend it fruitfully . Have to start revision and at the same time take a break . Is time to meet my baby, bbg and others. Not forgetting, dramas. :D Okay, but thats not the main . I NEED TO MEET MY DAD AND SPEND TIME WITH MUMMY! I swear, i've not been spending time with them. Especially my dad. :( I miss my daddy. ! 1 reason because im afraid my mood affects me since im quite down this days. But now, i will wanna mend everything to them (L) Nonetheless, someone brighten my day ! im gonna go rounding next week :D And 2 weeks later, disaster will be back :D So i have to enjoy too :( Imma nerd now :p LOL. Off to idol-ism :p

To actually think about life now, i could say im already taking a step back . I dont understand why at all. Why always when im giving myself a chance, things just dont turn out smoothly. Instead, it just drive me even crazier. So, this affected me, that affected me, soon it'll just make me collapse. Anyway, im getting my hands out of everything. My mother just love asking me:" is this the life you want?" Well, i've to always admit, " at first yah, apparently, screwed" Okay anyway, i've been getting movies and idols show to keep my mind occupied and schoolwork. Because i cant be always holding on to problems and thinking it'll change in one night. So, now, chances only come once or maybe twice, take it or leave it. Sometimes, i dont know what am i struggling about either. Oh , and after watching few shows, im gonna say this: DansonTang, JiroWang and Aaron Yan are awesome.

Is last day of May and im really sure that i've already lost my focus during this period. I ruined my studies, my life. Whatever, Anti social ? I.Dont.Give.A.Damn. Problems, one after another. I had enough . Now i know, i really know what am i to people. Those who care they do, those who dont, leave me alone. I know what i really need now. I dont care what will be the next problem coming up but im prepared for the worse. Yah, life is unpredictable. So depressing when i got my results. I need to buck up during june. I cant let problems to distract me anymore. True enough, when im troubled by problems, depressed by it, i cant do anything. All my mind was flooded by it. Now, i dont want to get my report book. I really dont want to. Last day of may, new start of June. I need to make a better start. Dear problems, Mind giving me a break till Olevel? I cant handle it anymore. I've been undergoing FUCKING MUCH PROBLEMS for 1,2,3,4,5 weeks? Is painful. I need a life of my own :( Anyway...